R Kelly

damn nigga... i havent written a journal in over 3 or 4 months fo reeeeeeeeal.
so update on my life:

i work everyday from 1:30-10, i love my job, i am no longer with harmony, i smoke waaaaay to much weed, and i spend 90% of my free time jokin it up with graham and eman.

the only bands that i have been listening to in the past 2 months are:
bongzilla, dialated peoples, floor, baroness, from here on, azazel, pg.99, mastadon, majority rule, ludacris, and the acacia strain.

i still love the good ole hardcore kids, but as far as bands go no one really shows any originality anymore... and at shows everyone forms biases against everyone/someone because how they dance or look. i went through that stage, but at some point in the last couple of months i decided to grow up and mature a little bit.

last but not least, kevin and i are moving in to harbor point apartments (on houston northcutt blvd in mt. pleasant) which i am definatley stoked about. those apartments are reeeeeeal nice.

damn homies. its been a while fo sho.

so i no longer work at the coleman and vincent starbucks... i am working at the one on houston northcutt now, which might i add is awesome. straight chillen.

im going today to try to get rid of the red rocket and get something with much lower payments, that way i can afford a nice little studio apartment downtown, or a decent townhouse in mt. p. i found a really nice, newley renovated 2 bedroom house downtown that i might take a lookin into as well.

oh, i almost forgot...
EH!!! JOHN MILAZZOOOOOOOOOO!

kids like us on saturday. thats all that matters.
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brian, i love you sooo much, you care sooo much about me, and are always there for me. let me have the next 4 days with my boyfriend, who i talk to 3 minutes a day and see once every 3 months, then when he goes back out of state ill love you and care for you again. fuck a bunch of being used. i deserve better than this, but i keep following the wrong path of going back to you.

i hate being treated like shit by the person that i love. you need a friend and im there, but when i need one your not.

anna ate a chicken finger today. no, make that 2 chicken fingers. that shit was tight yo.

fuck getting kicked out of the music farm for taking down a sign... i was just tryin to let my nigga tommyXsoul know that he should say "fuck btbam, we are playin a from here on song".

"my heart breaks, to see the look in your eyes, i need this thorn to leave my side"
dun dun weeeee dun dun dun dun weeeee dun dun dun weeeeee dun dun dun dun weee weee weee weee.

damn nuggahs... its been a while.

updates...
~ vacation has owned me. this shit has been so overwhelming. no work. all play. all pay.
i have been to 4 shows this week, and just about everyone one of them has been well worthwhile.

~ anna likes to say moo. wake up.

~ i need some new ink like a beast. im thinking of some new ideas to finish up the arm... then hopefully going to get them soon.

~ dont hate. appreciate.

she got a light skinned friend, look like micheal jackson... got a dark skinned friend, look like micheal jackson.

ok. so tonight was skraight thuggin. i started off with chillen with eman, anna, and joesizzzam then ended up comin back to the crib around 11:30ish. i got online and started chatin with my new buddy sarah online. hot shit yo. so we decided to go to the beach and hang out, which might i add was awesome... so after that we went ghetto cruisin, then back to beach for a lil mcdonalds picnic. i really enjoyed hangin out with her, and hopefully we will be seeing more of each other in the near future.

as to random shit... dude, if you dont buy the kanye west cd, you aint shit.

if you aint got a strap, but yo enemy got one... you betta run forest, run forest, run.

i guess everyone is waiting to hear my response on this...

so, in fact i did break edge. i could have kept this from everyone, but that would make being straightedge like a fashion statement. being edge is a wonderful thing, and a part of my life that holds alot of value. but anyways, heres the scoop:
so, as everyone knows, i have a very special girl in my life. one night, after a huge fight, she wanted to get drunk off some wine. i drank about 6 oz in a total of about 4 hours. i didnt get drunk, i didnt get buzzed. i still feel the same way about all of that shit. im not planing on harming my body, and just fyi (no excuses) 6 oz of wine does nothing more that thin your blood and help your body if anything. also, if you guys want to know about me breaking edge, ask a brother... dont go on what someone else says. but yeah, i broke it. as to the tattoo's, oh well what can you do? its a long period of my life where i stayed true to what i believed in, and to be tottally honest, i still plan on living the same lifestyle... i have no intent on getting drunk, smoking weed, or any of that other stuff. but occasionally if i feel like having a glass (if that) of wine with my girlfriend, im going to. if you decide not to be a niggaz friend because of this, you need to check yo self. and this isnt a big deal to me, like i thought it would be. i really dont care that much, because as ive always said, being edge is a personal conviction, and my demons are my own demons. i deal wit em, not you.

ok more important news:

the new underoath cd is nothing shy of incredible. i got the shivers several times while listening to it. so, go buy it.

i missed baroness. damnit. that band owns me.

so that last entry wasnt me... obviously.

thanks a latte, have a grande.

nations

 

harmony and i.   hopefully this time it shows up.

smoove.

for a lifetime of true love, is 2 lifetimes of true heartache. i just need tommorrow night really badly, so i can take my pain and anger out on the dance floor... especially during sever the fallen. metal shit.

oh, so i went to UNIWAY and went on a tour to get a free gift... i knew it was a scandal, but damn them boyz are cheap when it comes to the free gift. ie. a 100 dollar gift certificate for 1) a "mavado style" watch with a retail value of "299.99", so i only have to pay 199.99 plus shipping (10.00) to recieve it. 2) a 4 peice luggage set, where my total cost, after the gift certificate, would be 100.00. 3) an APEXO camera with 100 rolls of film (shipping 10.00), final cost 50 bucks. all of these things are available in tj max, or something along those lines, for under 20 bucks.

i also recieved a free mini vaction. ie. a 1 night stay in the ghetto of my choice.

so the moral of my story is: uniway is a "one way" ticket to getting nothing

eman is directly next to me. eh yo dun dun.

hold it down. harmony is back in town. love is in the air.

asian sluts cant dance... get the fuck out, grow the fuck up...

derricks party was fun. graham and i battled some lyrics. i lost.

being in love is the most wonderful thing in the world. and the shittiest thing in the world at the same time. fuck.

misery signals and 12 fucking tribes tommorrow night. lots of doods to mosh it up with.

pro's and con's for the week:

pros:
5. eat and run. crab house. ahhhhhh.
4. i still have john milazzo's double bass pedal
3. pay raise. holla.
2. baroness. enough said.
1. harmony continues to make me the happiest boy alive

cons:
5. its frappachino summer
4. end of all canceled the show saturday
3. john milazzo has an "i <3 nations" button
2. we have new frappachino's out
1. its frappachino summer. fuck.

last night was raw. hung out with my nigga d rock and fill up. that shit was raw. like last summer. hopefully skinny dippin is coming up soon. sausage titty fest 04'.

harmony is amazing. even when she is high. or drunk. or doin the pms thing. we still manage to work everything out for the better, even when times are rough.

in economics they teach you:
"TINSTAAFL"

"There is no such thing as a free lunch"

...this is may be true, but there sure as hell is such thing as a free dinner...

xEAT AND RUNx

when you find someone worth holding on to, something shitty always happens. all i wanted was the mutal feelings returned, but i never know whats real or whats fake when someone is under the influence of alcohol. she tells me how i think she is a bad person because she drinks, but i dont care what she does, thats what makes us who we are... i do care that the drinking is affecting the relationship and her health. every attempt i make for the good, always ends up becoming the bad. ive found someone worthy of wrapping my arms around as well as someone who is worthy of my heart. but there is nothing i can do to stop the vices she holds, and i have no reason to... she is her own person, with her own choices. but sometimes people do have a problem and they dont realize it, and they dont recept very well to people telling them that they do have a problem. i showed support in whatever decisions were made, whether i was uncomfortable or not. also, i thought this may be the instance where 2 people in a relationship, that are at the same workplace, could work out. i thought wrong.

the show was fun. lots of faces i havent seen in a while. it was good to see them. river city high coming up. im stoked.

i need to dance. soon. all i do is spend time with harmony, which is wonderful and i wouldnt give it up for anything, but i need some mosh, soon. yer.